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Tue, 26 Aug 2008 18:39:56 GMT

Purple Koala seems quiet from the outside, you like to look after junior fellows, and is a very popular person.
However, unlike your external outlook, you have a fire burning inside, and are a person of great fight.
Once you come across obstacles, you tackle it fiercely.
You are effectively well balanced with being "active" internally, and "calm" externally.
You are extremely clever, and have sharp sensitivity.
You are good at analyzing the future.
You can act smoothly, and can handle affaires easily.
Nevertheless, if you act too fast, unnecessary clash and loss may occur, and you may end up handling those.
Set backs and failures may be caused by your external and internal conflict.
You can overcome these conflicts by cherishing friends who would give you advice.
You don't like to change your mind.
When you become obstinate, you should step back and try to get help from the others.
By doing so, you can increase your good fortune.
The secret of success lies in how you can build up good relationship with other people.

silence is not golden.

Fri, 21 Mar 2008 07:15:10 GMT

"Have you ever been in love?
Horrible, isn't it?
It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up.
You build up all these defenses.
You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life.
You give them a piece of you.
They don't ask for it.
They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages.
It gets inside you.
It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.

It hurts.

Not just in the imagination.
Not just in the mind.
It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

I hate love."

-Neil Gaiman

rough weekend... +monday

Mon, 05 Nov 2007 12:57:14 GMT

Wow... everything that could go wrong, did.

Saturday
-Fell sick the week before the match on sat and never seemed to recover in time.
-Trained for 15's match but JB team chickened out and played 10's and we lost by 1 try
-Broke and no $ for just about everything.
-Man U drew with Arsenal when we were in the lead... damn injury time
-Work just made my cough and flu worse.

Sunday
-Broke but went to the beach anyway thanks to Chun treating me. Will treat u back bro.
-Had an ok time at the beach with the rest of the guys.
-Bumped into Harry who worked at some pastry shop and gave me 2 free sinful chocolate pastries
-On the way back, I had to wait for 3 number 23 busses. Its a sunday and I still had to wait? All thanks to Deepavali and an overcrowded little India... Should have just taken the train back to Tampines. URGH!
-Once i reached my busstop, It started raining heavily on me... Perfect way to spoil a great day.

Monday(today)
-Woke up feeling extra sick and groggy... Doesnt help when you have an important interview later on.
-Cooked breakfast which was maggi and some minced meat and ate it.
-Cut my thumb super deep. Thanks to being groggy and careless... Had to spend some time to stop the bleeding.
-Half way through eating breakfast i stopped. Puked the food out and spent half an hour wretching/coughing/vomiting in the toilet.
-Couldn't eat anything else so i just drank horlicks and prepared to go for the interview.
-Realised that im late and i still had to photocopy all my transcripts.
-Rushed through the photocopying while getting ready.
-Late and only 20mins left so i called up my dad and asked him to come home to lend me some cash to take a cab.
-Arrived abt 5mins late. Interview went poorly. I dont think i'll make it for the 2nd interview.
-Felt bad abt how the interview went and my shoe decided to give way! The front sole of my shoe decided to grow a mouth. Flopped around looking a solution before finally finding some black electrical tape in my bag and just taped up the front and rushed home.
-Bus was very very slow and took me nearly 2 hrs to get home. That really irritated me but i decided to just sleep on the bus.
-Got home and slept some more.
-Finally ate some porridge and i didnt puke out.

Whats been on my mind?

Wed, 17 Oct 2007 11:36:09 GMT

Quite a few things have been happening since i last blogged. Firstly id like to wish all my friends a Selamat Hari Raya! Im not feeling very festive but its nice to see the relatives again., esp my grandmothers. Had the weekend off from work so i went visiting with the family. Stayed home that saturday night so it was my first saturday night spent at home in over a year... maybe even 2 lol... I guess thats the nature of a club photographer.

Speaking of work, it's come to my attention that my company has become a little bit unstable. Management changes and some questionable investments have put my faith in the company in questionable doubt. I just hope that i will be able to keep this job. I think its also a sign for me to start looking for a proper full-time job. I need the cash anyway and this club photographer thing would be a great side income.

I was going to post quite a bit about a certain particular bam-bam but after receiving the news, i think it would be best to hold back. I think bam-bam needs space and some cheering up from her friends. I hope that you will be alright and I will be here for you if u need anything ok? Promise =) Cant wait to go to the Japanese charity fair with you =D

Ouh yes, this saturday is 5ilver's birthday and i promised that i would attend her birthday get together and i hope to see the rest of the dk4 and wg peeps. What would be a good birthday present for a girl? Hmmm im really not good at these things. I rarely get presents from friends myself and i rarely give my friends presents as well lol...

Sentosa with the TP rugby peeps was fun... playing beach touch was really tiring and Nicole just couldnt shut her yap lol... she was like the energizer bunny who couldnt shut up lol.. It was good to meet up and chill with Zaki and the rest. I didnt know Baldwin and Izyan were an item... so cute! Sam was cramping on the way back after we had dinner at Carl's Jr lol... I discovered that i love honey mustard. I think it goes with everything lol. Most of the pics i took using my old digicam turned out super crappy... Now i remember why i dont use it anymore lol... Should have just used my hp cam, would have been much better. I still <3 the beach.

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 15:53:00 GMT

Lanterns, a wish and lots of cheese...

Mon, 01 Oct 2007 20:47:14 GMT

Its been an eventful weekend. I went to the Chinese Garden to visit the lanterns festival display. It was my first time there and my first time checking out such a display. The theme was 'Magical Ocean' and I had fun walking around and just soaking in the atmosphere and looking at the displays. A lot of familiar lanterns shaped like characters that looked like they popped out of a movie or two like 'finding nemo' or 'happy feet'... It was kind of trippy with some of the characters looking like they came out of a kids show or cartoon... Like the polar bears that looked more like dogs! It wasn't too crowded so that was a nice plus. I think that since it was the last day, that might have had something to do with the smaller crowd. Played around with lanterns that they gave away free too. I had to resist the temptation to burn my lantern hehe! While walking around exploring a nice lady came up to us to offer us to either throw something up a tree with your wish written on it or light up a candle and let it float away with your wish. We had to buy either the golden coins with the ribbon and your wish written on it or the lotus blossom with the candle but it was for charity anyway. Bam-bam was afraid that she wouldn't be able to throw it up the tree so we decided to go with the candles on the lotus blossoms. We both made our wishes and watched as our candles floated away... It was lovely and kind of romantic. I hope i get my wish. =)

Oh yes... i almost forgot. Before i went to see the lanterns, i ate at pizza hut and ate the cheese fondue pizza. It was SOOOOO GOOD! I had to hold back making orgasmic sounds in front of her lol... I would highly recommend it to anybody who likes cheese. 2 different types of cheese in the crust and the cheese dip is just so yummy! The chicken goes nicely with the pizza too. The chicken portions were a bit little but i guess thats normal.

So finally today, painting of the house is done. Not bad, painting the whole house in just 2 days. My room is white with a dark blue wall. Room is still in a mess and i think I'm gonna spend the day cleaning it up. Just realised my 2nd computer monitor is dying. Such a hassle to just use a single monitor for my pc. Once u use a dual monitor setup, u just find hard to go back.

I gave Bam-bam a red rose just over dinner and I'm glad she liked it. Its just a single stalk this time round but hopefully there will be more over time. Seeing her smile makes me smile and i enjoy her company so much. We share so much in common and i even found out that we were both formerly left handed! Its like finding a mirror image of me, figuratively speaking of course... i think it would freak her out if she did wake up one day to find herself looking exactly like me lol. I'm very grateful to have found a person like her. Even if she didn't feel anything for me or if things didn't work out, i would still want her around as a good friend.

Trippy polar bears 1.

Trippy polar bears 2.

Pelicans or Storks

Dolphins

Mermaid

8 Immortals... cant really see them though =(

The two lotus blossoms with the candles floating away...

Penguins and a whale... like in surf's up..

Bam-bam and a rose =)

Quick update

Sat, 29 Sep 2007 13:57:04 GMT

Ended the regular season today with a win against bedok kings 6 tries to 3... I think we have 4 wins and 4 losses and 4 bonus points. Hopefully we make the final 4 depending on how the rest of the matches turn out.

Tomorrow will be visiting the lantern display at Chinese Garden. Hopefully i can get a few nice pictures and maybe a shot of the fireworks display too if there is one. I know the company is going to be great. I cant wait to see bam-bam again.

Oh well... off to work now!
=)

much ado about nothing...

Fri, 28 Sep 2007 08:06:47 GMT

The long awaited post.

Its been a while. Ive just been posting quotes that i find interesting and odd bits and pieces here and there. Main reasons ive been missing is that ive been either too lazy or too busy to do a proper post here.

I do miss my long ramblings but somehow i felt stifled to post here now that i know certain people read my blog but i think im gonna just ignore it and just say how i feel as ive always done. Hopefully it doesnt offend other people.

Life hasnt been perfect. Im still looking for a full time job and ive graduated finally like in May. Im still working for whosgoing as a part time job and hopefully ill keep it as a permanent part time for extra income when i have a full time job.

Im still playing rugby and enjoying myself more in the game. Knowing this could be the last years of my life in rugby, im enjoying it as much as i can.

The weightloss program has had a major setback. I stopped due to several factors. National trials was over so i stepped down the intensity to the point i was slacking and i was caught up with affairs of the heart which made me not want to do anything at all. So now, im heavier than when i started lol but i havent lost faith. I WAS losing weight when i stuck to the program. Now that im feeling better, im gonna restart the program. Wish me luck again lol...

Im still single.

The Bad:
I was seriously dating a girl and even got together with her for a grand total of 2 weeks before she decided i wasnt good enough for her and she left me for another guy she just met and went out with under my nose. Im pretty sure thats cheating isnt it? Life sure is grand isnt it? Seemed like i didnt meet up to her expectations of being her guy and having to pay for everything for her. I wondered somehow if she wanted my money more than she wanted me? There were some other things we argued or disagreed with and it just seemed that i never fit into that role of the perfect boyfriend for her. C'cest la vie! Life still goes on...

The Good:
I have friends whom i know i can count on with my life and helped me through the difficult periods. Im over her. Ive found somebody i like and i think she likes me too. Hopefully im not just imagining that part about her liking me lol.

Ok.. its not really that long compared to the ramblings that ive posted in the past but its a welcome change to just pictures/quotes/songs.

Cheers!

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Thu, 27 Sep 2007 13:39:58 GMT

Monday, September 03, 2007

Mon, 03 Sep 2007 15:29:49 GMT

Because of you, I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you, I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you, I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you, I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you, I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you, I am afraid